I don’t know about you, but I have a drawer of knickknacks and half-finished projects—remnants of ideas and good intentions.
In my bathroom vanity, tucked behind a beautiful brass knob, there’s a special drawer. At first glance, it might seem like a treasure trove.
Once, maybe it was. But now? It’s a collection of brokenness. Broken glass. Broken jewelry. Missing sequins. And, perhaps, broken dreams.
Each piece ended up in this drawer because, at some point, I told myself I would fix it. That I would find the time to reattach that clasp, that I’d discover the match to that one clip-on earring I adore, or maybe I’d give a piece new life because this pendant is so sentimental.
But I haven’t.
And now the drawer is full.
Not with treasure, but with intentions—intentions that have long expired.
To be very honest, some of these items are truly beyond repair.
The joint on a bracelet has snapped off completely. The solder that once held it together disintegrated. And yet I kept it. Because maybe—just maybe—I’ll fix it one day. That’s the tease or lie, I tell myself.
And to date, I fixed maybe two or three things. I should be honest with myself when I’m not ready to let go.
That drawer is not a shrine of hope. It’s a graveyard of the dream deferred. It’s filled with delays and avoidance. As an author it’s a drawer of nice stories that I’m afraid to finish.
I think a lot of us are carrying real and metaphorical drawers like this through our lives.
We hold onto broken relationships, deflated dreams, abandoned goals. We carry them from space to space, boxing them up when we move, adding more to this draw year after year, when our plans change and haven’t the guts or desire to say goodbye out loud.
Truthly, I need to stop deluding myself. I’m not going to fix everything in this drawer.
There’s a difference between hope and baggage and that is a line called passion.
If you look closely at your time, your money, your energy they go to what you are passionate about.
They aligned with what you actually want?
If you feel there’s a disconnect between your vision and your investments, fix it. Otherwise That gap, that distance between what we want and what believe we want will fester into brokenness.
I wear clip-on earrings. Napier, Monet, Anne Klein are some favorites. And when I really like them, I will sometimes by duplicates of the same style. It sort of insurance, telling myself I have a backup in case I lose one. But that’s really just another excuse to keep piling excess into the drawer. The results are more broken pieces. More delays.
We all have excuses. And some of them are pretty good. As an author I can write some great excuses on why I’m filling up this space.
Yet, I need to accept that I’m weigh myself down. And whether it’s a literal drawer or an emotional one, we only have so much room.
So here’s my challenge to you—and to myself:
Go through your drawer. Literally and metaphorically. Sort through what’s there. Ask:
• Is this worth fixing?
• Do I want to invest the time to fix it?
• Is this taking up space where something whole and life-giving could live?
If you haven’t kept your word and fixed it in six months, let it go. Give it away, recycle it, or be brave and throw it out.
Here’s the truth that I have to accept. That draw of broken pieces is a mirror. And I don’t like what I see when I dig inside.
I’d rather the drawer be filled intention and joy. I’d rather it hold onto laughter, and good memories, and wholeness. I don’t want to leave behind a bunch of hot mess of pieces that no one understands or values when I had the power to clear it out and make room for better things.
Taking action:
That’s how we heal.
That’s how we move forward.
That’s how we create space for joy and new dreams.
Give yourself grace.
Give yourself freedom.
Throw out the broken pieces.
You deserve better. I’m rooting for us.
Books to get us through these moments:
Failures of Forgiveness: What We Get Wrong and How to Do Better by Myisha Cherry. It challenges our pressures to fix, offering a powerful reminder that sometimes, true healing begins by choosing not to repair what was never whole to begin with.
On Repentance and Repair by Danya Ruttenberg reframes the impulse to “fix” broken things—not through nostalgia or delay, but by naming harm, doing the work of transformation and restitution.
Village Weavers by Myriam J. A. Chancy illuminates how friendships, histories, and generational wounds can fracture and later reveal pathways to reconnection. Chancy reminds us that sometimes we must face the secrets we’ve kept tucked away, choosing what we rebuild and what we release.
This time I’m going to recommend an album: The Miseducation of Lauryn Hill is a testament to transforming personal brokenness, relational rupture, and societal pressures into a narrative of healing and self-reclamation.
This week, I’m highlighting Reparations Club Bookstore through their website and Bookshop.org
The cover for Fire Sword and Sea is here—and I love it! Three souls looking in different directions having each other’s back perfectly captures the spirit of these women pirates-bold brave and free of the 1600s.
Fire Sword and Sea – This sweeping saga, releasing January 13, 2026, follows fearless women who defied the world order and seized power on the high seas.
Preorders are now live! Visit my website for links to retailers big and small. Help spread the word. Share the adventure!
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